WHY *.*

Seriously…I’m very very tired of it…everything that happened in 2011…made me freaking exhausted…sometimes just wanna close my eyes as tight as possible and get enough rest…not that rest which is sleep whole day long…would imagine I have a ‘click remote’…I would like to pause my life in order to grab some rest…

There were many 1^st times happened around me in 2011…especially 2 major incidents…first time I failed my paper…right at the moment when I was staring at my result…teardrop trickled down on my cheek and I cursed silently!!!  ’WHY ME???’ appeared in my mind when I was revising and preparing for my resit paper…it was so ridiculous when my friends and family asked about my result…told them I failed 1 paper…then “you fail your paper? Impossible…tell properly la…that’s not funny” I got this reaction…what a sarcastic reply…or they would ask all over again and again just wanna make sure of it >.< it was my expression at that moment…I don’t even know how should I answer…just put on a silly smile and repeated ‘ya…I failed’…thought that I have worked hard for it…yet the result showed it wasn’t enough…learnt a lesson -->  don’t listen to whatever lecturer tell you…but thank GOD…my hard work came to fruition…I passed eventually…the feeling when I was checking my result…was so nervous…terrible…horrible…just can’t describe it in words you know…

Second 1^st time was my right wrist operation…not going to talk more about it…the pain you would never know…right hand…can’t move in couple of days…could you imagine it…

After the operation…thought that everything gonna be alright…yet…don’t know why or how I twisted my left leg…I was like ‘what the hell is going on’…3^rd week already…still pain…it ruined my days…besides…was wrestling over with my stomach last week…then now having flu…get all in one time @.@ drive me insane and have no mood to study at all…GOD…you must be kidding me…I’m only in year 1…please *.* 

*everything changed after you left…well…I could manage the changes slowly and will get use to it…something will be deleted and replaced…*

It was the toughest year that I ever had…not saying that I am timid to face those problems…but then I’m so sick of it…happened nonstop one by one…soul is getting weary and heavy…just wanna grab a fitful sleep ^^

Fine *.*

Few months over…and I'm back on this page again…

I think I’m fine…don’t feel like any problem occur…don’t understand why you said so…or may be…deniable??? Acted like a doctor only >< if you could heal me then I will admit it…

After I heard from you…started to observe whether something wrong or not…yet I found that…may be you are right??? Hope it is not that serious…all those symptoms I had…

Just because you know everything that I told you…so that you could see it through???

Physically there is nothing happen…how could you so sure about mentally inside??? Just few days and you could conclude it…well…may be it is truth because I wouldn’t cover up myself in front of you…that was real me…

Peeps around didn’t say anything…we mingled all the time…giggling to each other, do silly stuff, laugh out loud…yet you could so sure about it in just few days long…don’t believe in you and myself instead…

Cheers…think positively…and I’m not the one^^   

^ selama^

If i'm not mistaken...i only get back there once in a year...because i am studying so far away...from outskirt??? hahaxxx...not really...

When i was there...all those memories coming up in my mind...miss their laugh...their funny jokes...with those ridiculous acts...all of the children fooling and playing around the house...running here and there...really so long ago i didn't see them...

There have 3 tough guys ^^ i mean it...with klcc's height =.= miss them so so much...mingled and played around when we were still 'little' and young in age XD very hard to meet all together...hope they will have a great rabbit V year in 2011 =]

time flee...

3 months time...I'm back again^^ here...to where i belonged...my world XD torture time passed...holidays mood on...

  

Refreshed back to the 5th sem in second year...quite normal and peaceful...because of something...so excited with it...i could enjoy it eventually...

But sometimes really feel like very irritating...i admitted...you were making noise and annoying me...no one could control you...but at least don't talk so much okay >.< i didn't see a guy with such acts before...your attitude and actions made me mad!!!

         
Haix...i should think something happy now...think about where to party ^.^

why must compare???

Recently...i retorted back to my bro the question above when he asked something about it...ya...that's my point...'WHY we want to compare with others?'...'that's where we could improve!'...i totally disagree...why cant we compare to ourselves??? i'm sure you will get upset when you compare with others...they are better than you...that kind of feeling tell you that...u LOSE!!! If you are always the 'better' one...no fear then...If you are not...you will suffer...think that 'why cant i do that?'...i could be better...

For me...i would try my best to not compare...only compare with myself...living in my own world...yet i didn't...i know my target...If i ever achieve it...i'm success...i'm the winner!!! but his thinking exactly different with mine...it would only stress you up...just let it go...you will feel better...by the way...keep it on...fight for it...stand till the end!!!

my holidays~~

It was so fast...3 weeks time...gone abruptly...new semester start very soon...i miss my holidays in my hometown...everytime also don't feel like wanna coming back...to the real life - that need to study...

There are something i gonna miss it...have to wait for quite a long time to get it back...between i will wait patiently...

Well...anyway...human need knowledge...that's the truth...always true...and money $$$...that we need...in life...no money no talk...so just face the truth...=.= 

Realized

Having my sem break now...i have 3 weeks to enjoy...wOOt!!! thats great...love holidays...XD

Well...hanged out with all of you again and again...of course i felt happy and i did appreciate everything that i have at this moment...realized some of them did a really good job to themselves...it is a good news indeed...*grinning* what i could say is...u are right...always right...hahax

On the other hand...bad news approached too...promised u that i will keep it to myself...i will...hope u could handle it well...no matter what...will be there to support u...believe in u will get through it...

*remember life goes on......no matter what happened......* 

I'm nOt afraid!!!

May be sometimes we should ask our self to be brave in no matter what...believe in we can do it...although it is hard...but at least we have put on our effort...that is enough...at least for me...was like i had tried my best...so no worries...somehow...i will still think of it...how would it be IF......really happen...'IF' always drives me crazy...all those impossible thought appear in my mind...

Well...my brain is not functioning right now...i cant manage to think anything...notes overdosed...need time to format and scan it again...make sure there is empty memories to store new one right after this...freaking exhausted during exam period...really wish that i could have a fitful sleep...i need it badly...

Hope there is a 'Note To God' for everyone...so i could write whatever i wish or what to achieve...

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak what's in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

If i wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

and for peace to mend this world

I'd say

...

...

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If i wrote to God

I'd say please help us find a way

End all the bitterness, put some tenderness

in our hearts

I'd say

...

...

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

No

We can't do it on our own

So

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

...

...

...

*Diane Warren...God will be there...always*

hate it!!!

No doubt that nobody will like to have examination...forced to revise...study study and study...just study for exam...hate to memorize all the points as well...after memorize it...just wait for that particular moment to vomit out in exam hall...what for to study like that...totally no idea >.<

Anyway...stop condemning here...taking action is much better than talking crap...=D

*pass by to drop / scream out any stress in my mind*

*JAY*

 ^love it^

Waiting it for so long...finally it is with me now...^^ felt glad and thanks to shaun!!! Genting trip made my day though...XD 

Crazy S&J...still shivering when recalled at the moment i was inside the cable car...x.x 

No next time!!! hahaxxx