WHY *.*

Seriously…I’m very very tired of it…everything that happened in 2011…made me freaking exhausted…sometimes just wanna close my eyes as tight as possible and get enough rest…not that rest which is sleep whole day long…would imagine I have a ‘click remote’…I would like to pause my life in order to grab some rest…

There were many 1^st times happened around me in 2011…especially 2 major incidents…first time I failed my paper…right at the moment when I was staring at my result…teardrop trickled down on my cheek and I cursed silently!!!  ’WHY ME???’ appeared in my mind when I was revising and preparing for my resit paper…it was so ridiculous when my friends and family asked about my result…told them I failed 1 paper…then “you fail your paper? Impossible…tell properly la…that’s not funny” I got this reaction…what a sarcastic reply…or they would ask all over again and again just wanna make sure of it >.< it was my expression at that moment…I don’t even know how should I answer…just put on a silly smile and repeated ‘ya…I failed’…thought that I have worked hard for it…yet the result showed it wasn’t enough…learnt a lesson -->  don’t listen to whatever lecturer tell you…but thank GOD…my hard work came to fruition…I passed eventually…the feeling when I was checking my result…was so nervous…terrible…horrible…just can’t describe it in words you know…

Second 1^st time was my right wrist operation…not going to talk more about it…the pain you would never know…right hand…can’t move in couple of days…could you imagine it…

After the operation…thought that everything gonna be alright…yet…don’t know why or how I twisted my left leg…I was like ‘what the hell is going on’…3^rd week already…still pain…it ruined my days…besides…was wrestling over with my stomach last week…then now having flu…get all in one time @.@ drive me insane and have no mood to study at all…GOD…you must be kidding me…I’m only in year 1…please *.* 

*everything changed after you left…well…I could manage the changes slowly and will get use to it…something will be deleted and replaced…*

It was the toughest year that I ever had…not saying that I am timid to face those problems…but then I’m so sick of it…happened nonstop one by one…soul is getting weary and heavy…just wanna grab a fitful sleep ^^

Fine *.*

Few months over…and I'm back on this page again…

I think I’m fine…don’t feel like any problem occur…don’t understand why you said so…or may be…deniable??? Acted like a doctor only >< if you could heal me then I will admit it…

After I heard from you…started to observe whether something wrong or not…yet I found that…may be you are right??? Hope it is not that serious…all those symptoms I had…

Just because you know everything that I told you…so that you could see it through???

Physically there is nothing happen…how could you so sure about mentally inside??? Just few days and you could conclude it…well…may be it is truth because I wouldn’t cover up myself in front of you…that was real me…

Peeps around didn’t say anything…we mingled all the time…giggling to each other, do silly stuff, laugh out loud…yet you could so sure about it in just few days long…don’t believe in you and myself instead…

Cheers…think positively…and I’m not the one^^   

^ selama^

If i'm not mistaken...i only get back there once in a year...because i am studying so far away...from outskirt??? hahaxxx...not really...

When i was there...all those memories coming up in my mind...miss their laugh...their funny jokes...with those ridiculous acts...all of the children fooling and playing around the house...running here and there...really so long ago i didn't see them...

There have 3 tough guys ^^ i mean it...with klcc's height =.= miss them so so much...mingled and played around when we were still 'little' and young in age XD very hard to meet all together...hope they will have a great rabbit V year in 2011 =]

time flee...

3 months time...I'm back again^^ here...to where i belonged...my world XD torture time passed...holidays mood on...

  

Refreshed back to the 5th sem in second year...quite normal and peaceful...because of something...so excited with it...i could enjoy it eventually...

But sometimes really feel like very irritating...i admitted...you were making noise and annoying me...no one could control you...but at least don't talk so much okay >.< i didn't see a guy with such acts before...your attitude and actions made me mad!!!

         
Haix...i should think something happy now...think about where to party ^.^