Pl@nning

It has been a while i didn't drag anything here...although i passed by...dropped by many places...and reached my OWN room eventually...miss it so much...my 3rd semester break started...various plans approached...

Let's have a look about how to make a plan get done without any obstacles happen...*may be it could be done yet not in a perfect way instead*...if you are planning something (some kinda gathering or outing)...you have to make sure everyone could join...and discuss with everyone...where and when to go...as you act as the leader/ organiser...you have to decide everything and make sure all of them obey it...it is always some sort of them couldn't make it...hardly to get a perfect plan...so if you wanna make a plan goes smooth as your wish...i prefer to have the outing in a small group...about 5 or 6 people...once you could confirm anything and manage whatever mess easily...could get the latest message very clearly among pals in that particular group...the next thing...interests of buddies are quite important...like and dislike...you must have the knowledge...as well as there is no one would change their mind in the last minute...i think there is a successful plan...

Of course...i didn't refuse to join in a big party too..."more people more fun"...there is the quote when wanna invite more guests...while party is absolutely different with a gathering or an outing...for me...an outing will have more fun...it depends...

Through Marge...that pretty funny Homer's wife (if you know about simpsons)...i learnt that "you should listen to your heart...and not the voices in your head"...may be she is true...we should grope and grab the opportunity and just do whatever you want to...listen to your heart...have a right decision and spend time wisely...sometimes different voices hovering around and mix up what we really want...you could stand firm and be determined with your thinking or planning...just follow your heart and try your best to do it...

w3ll

Today was the last day of my final exam...glad that no need to face my notes anymore...well...there is always an obstacle in front of me when i am having gay moment...while...i need your help...your advices...yet the same advices...but i was still care with it...i can't let it such as 'nothing at all'...i couldn't do it...there is my sense that let me know what is actually happen around...

I know that everyone has their own characteristics...and sometimes we might not understand each other very well...it depends on whether that particular person want to share it out or not...normally i will settle it myself by my way...not that tough right...as the previous post of mine...communication...it makes me confused...why can't you understand it??? it did piss me off...

Well...i don't care anymore...and i realized i went further and further...i wonder...am i in the correct way to do that??? ya...it is the time for me to learn...i am learning all the way...i wouldn't let this to wipe away my happiness...well...easy easy...there is the way to get things done...i believe in it...

14042010 ~~

Although the turning point in my current life vanished abruptly...well (shrugging)...could feel solemn and mournful atmosphere...i had promised myself...wouldn't to give a little whimper anymore...should i confide in it???that it was the faith...i don't know...

Anyway...just hanged around with a so called 'vampire' and a peculiar 'RM' in this pretty hot afternoon...went to 1 U...i think we walked through old and new wings...exhausted...both of them were absolutely ludicrous...their foolish conversation always lead me stammer slightly...actually the purpose we visited there was to buy "MayDay DNA World Tour" tickets...freaking hard to find a shop that hide in a corner >< it just out of sight...it would be an awesome show i wish...it is going to be held in June...have to declare bankrupt after we had our lunch in Charbroiled Burgers store...(not pointing to someone else)...hahaxxx

Somehow...i am still having my final exam...mood status turned grief again...just because of the concert could cheer me up at that moment...that is exhilarating^^

2 more subjects to go...GOOD LUCK everyone...

C L ^^

Having coffee liquor at night...the taste is really nice...nice to drink...yet unluckily...i couldn't have it much...because i have to attend final exam on the next day...kinda sad ><

CL contains about 15 % of alcohol if not mistaken...i just had it a little bit...it blushed my face...felt the heat on my cheeks...it was great...could sleep tight tonight...will try it next time...i mean to have more for sure...xD

pls care for IT

OHR...communication chapter...may be it does help someone to improve their skills...i have a glance over some articles about it too...some of them really expressed well and could be understood and absorbed quickly...when we are talking or discussing with one another...please do care for someone's feeling...although joking or jeering around when we mix with friends...don't be too much and cross over the limit...you don't even note that as if someone is suffering with it...don't keep insulting at the same person with the same stuff...again and again...remember that EVERYONE has their very own feeling...wouldn't reveal any particular person...just reflected some of the examples in our daily life...

Almost all of us rely on buddies around...may be someone does not...we have a wonderful time when we mingle together...to play...to eat and enjoying life...although all called friends...still insulted 'softly' in front of you...what would you do...punch them straight away or you will choose to walk away with a silly smile on your cheeks...i wouldn't curse and didn't give a damn...there is nothing could do at least you really wanna break the friendship...

Not saying that you can't joke or i would say it 'jeer'...you have to learn to listen and accept but not only condemn there...of course i'm not living in a solitary instance of cowardice environment... on the contrary...i think almost all of them could help or discuss to get the problem done...treat your friends well...they have the feeling...care about it...

chance given yet......

Although there is a little bit of hope for me...it is really complicated...could i have another options???at least let me to choose the best way...not to follow it blindly...i have the right to demand what i suppose to have...the worst thing happened unfortunately...it doesn't have dead line anymore...so HOW???hate to pass through the ''waiting period''...while this is the truth and nobody could change it...

I wouldn't say that i am down with something else...another way round...i tried my best to solve the dilemma that brought me nowhere recently...and another thing...no one could change me...even though senior/elder/older...don't even persuade me and ordered to do whatever you would like to...anyway...forget about it...

nothing is impossible???

Something inspired me to get back my "human sense" and such feeling...the bravery to continue where i stuck on...don't know since when i have stepped inside such big deep hole...it became fact and isn't it faith???could i change it somehow i don't know the way to lead myself somewhere else i wish to... just want to grab the opportunity and fulfill my desires in my mind...really that tough??? seems nobody could answer...do hope that someone could listen and accept my suggestion at the right time...please DO NOT convince me with those ridiculous reasons...it was not true at all...i could handle it as well...why don't you think about what circumstances i am facing and consequences at last...i just don't want to make things worse or even worst...please again...think about it with standing by my side...

Wondering that this stuff offered me how many sleepless nights...wrestled and strove against it...while tried to have my fitful sleep...yet i failed...i must convince you but not another way round...every time when i was thinking about this...that is the word -->down ...i will prove it to you all...please believe in me...

I did make myself get high last week...it was pretty cool...the feeling was freaking great...spent the whole night giggling, but never got totally drunk...that was the only night i could sleep tight without any deep thinking...i admitted i did deny when was being questioned...i am okay...may be someone could see it through...yet i denied...but i was really fine...such a silly...confused...
''how could this happen to me''
-may be i made my mistakes and nowhere to run
-nights goes on as i am fading away, just wanna scream
-hope when i open my eyes, i cant remember how, i cant remember why, i am lying here
-with everyone's screaming, i try to make a sound but no one hears me
-could i say 'i am sick of this life'

Even though i could get what i want at this moment...but i believe it would not last longer as it goes further...may be i cant cope with it...and don't even try on my endurance...will burst it out soon...don't piss me off often (particular person)...so i chose to walk slower and leave behind...

Have to thank someone who cheers around...even though one day instead...yet you covered it well too...so as we are classified in the same type of creature...hopefully could solve it as soon as possible...i did agree ''don't think too much''...but sometimes just couldn't take it as easy as you think...have to consider the situations we are facing...anyway...just try to solve it if you can...yet i have to get the right time...never known when is it...still an unknown there...

well...life goes on...^^