why must compare???

Recently...i retorted back to my bro the question above when he asked something about it...ya...that's my point...'WHY we want to compare with others?'...'that's where we could improve!'...i totally disagree...why cant we compare to ourselves??? i'm sure you will get upset when you compare with others...they are better than you...that kind of feeling tell you that...u LOSE!!! If you are always the 'better' one...no fear then...If you are not...you will suffer...think that 'why cant i do that?'...i could be better...

For me...i would try my best to not compare...only compare with myself...living in my own world...yet i didn't...i know my target...If i ever achieve it...i'm success...i'm the winner!!! but his thinking exactly different with mine...it would only stress you up...just let it go...you will feel better...by the way...keep it on...fight for it...stand till the end!!!

my holidays~~

It was so fast...3 weeks time...gone abruptly...new semester start very soon...i miss my holidays in my hometown...everytime also don't feel like wanna coming back...to the real life - that need to study...

There are something i gonna miss it...have to wait for quite a long time to get it back...between i will wait patiently...

Well...anyway...human need knowledge...that's the truth...always true...and money $$$...that we need...in life...no money no talk...so just face the truth...=.= 

Realized

Having my sem break now...i have 3 weeks to enjoy...wOOt!!! thats great...love holidays...XD

Well...hanged out with all of you again and again...of course i felt happy and i did appreciate everything that i have at this moment...realized some of them did a really good job to themselves...it is a good news indeed...*grinning* what i could say is...u are right...always right...hahax

On the other hand...bad news approached too...promised u that i will keep it to myself...i will...hope u could handle it well...no matter what...will be there to support u...believe in u will get through it...

*remember life goes on......no matter what happened......* 

I'm nOt afraid!!!

May be sometimes we should ask our self to be brave in no matter what...believe in we can do it...although it is hard...but at least we have put on our effort...that is enough...at least for me...was like i had tried my best...so no worries...somehow...i will still think of it...how would it be IF......really happen...'IF' always drives me crazy...all those impossible thought appear in my mind...

Well...my brain is not functioning right now...i cant manage to think anything...notes overdosed...need time to format and scan it again...make sure there is empty memories to store new one right after this...freaking exhausted during exam period...really wish that i could have a fitful sleep...i need it badly...

Hope there is a 'Note To God' for everyone...so i could write whatever i wish or what to achieve...

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak what's in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

If i wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

and for peace to mend this world

I'd say

...

...

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If i wrote to God

I'd say please help us find a way

End all the bitterness, put some tenderness

in our hearts

I'd say

...

...

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

No

We can't do it on our own

So

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

...

...

...

*Diane Warren...God will be there...always*

hate it!!!

No doubt that nobody will like to have examination...forced to revise...study study and study...just study for exam...hate to memorize all the points as well...after memorize it...just wait for that particular moment to vomit out in exam hall...what for to study like that...totally no idea >.<

Anyway...stop condemning here...taking action is much better than talking crap...=D

*pass by to drop / scream out any stress in my mind*

*JAY*

 ^love it^

Waiting it for so long...finally it is with me now...^^ felt glad and thanks to shaun!!! Genting trip made my day though...XD 

Crazy S&J...still shivering when recalled at the moment i was inside the cable car...x.x 

No next time!!! hahaxxx

It's my day^^ 23

*23072010* Once in a year...love my mum^^ listened to birthday's song many times...and ate a lot...thanks to all my friends' wishes and those who celebrated with me...did appreciate it...love u guys...same goes to my family and cousins...thank you to all of u...

I like my presents too^^ and i am still waiting for my very advance imported present...i wanna collect it as soon as possible...waiting for u...miss u...xD

Inc€pt!On ~~

Feel like wanna combo every movie that i interested...hahax...holding popcorn in my arms and enjoy my movies...that's pretty cool...i went for 'Inception' recently...the story line is just amazing...so many layers of dreams...in a dream there is another dream...i love it^^...wish i could do that too but yet not too extreme of course...xD...build whatever i like and meet whoever i want to...it is definitely fantastic...

Well...if i am the man...i would like to keep those memories too...live with the person that we love together...although it is just a dream...i prefer don't wanna wake up...because when we woke up and only realised that was not real at all...i hate that kinda feeling...really disappointed...why it happened  but was a fake thing...*what a crazy thinking...guess really get influenced by the movie...hahax...xD

Come back to real world!!! it's time to wake up!!!

2 major Events in TARC!!!

 *TalenTime Night* 04072010

^AV team^ 

*Orientation Odyssey Night* 11072010

One word to describe > AWESOME yet EXHAUSTED!!! Well...we did enjoy both shows...thumbs up!!!

It is not kinda easy to run a big event...need to cooperate with many people...and make the best decision...all i wanna say about it is...WELL DONE^^

...

I'm sorry that shouldn't be calling people moron...i'm just getting frustrated...found that i'm freaking tired to pretend as a good one...could say masquerade as well...thought don't wanna mess up whatever things happened around me...yet somehow someone would tend to against it...

We don't need enemy in our life...just pretty good to have a simple life...just simplified...as well as we enjoy it...please don't force us to do whatever we don't like...think about dignity as a human being...we gotta feeling...talk properly...then we will respect...if not...i'm really sorry...that's not my problem...

Updated my life^^

Well...i did dump this page so long time ago...haha...kinda busy during this semester...joined many events...just wanna have fun^^...nearly influence my 5 subjects there...really sick of it...bemused in class sometimes...i know it was not good at all...when looking at those long and complicated questions...ended up with a gormless look on my face >.< always have something to distract my attention...hope to get a great masterstroke and do well in final...i need it badly =.=

Recently i found out the people who is arrogant likes to talk very loud...was she or he wanna show his or her power as a leader??? he or she would get mad easily...i don't know why...all of us did our part...nothing could be perfect...i hate the feeling been 'hit' in the public yet we did nothing wrong...what's the problem...please think about it when wanna talk or scold someone...well...wouldn't screw people in front of him or her...he or she wouldn't survive longer in today's society...

Just forget about those stupid things...throw it away...don't let it empties my happiness^^ there are some major events waiting for me to discover it...life goes on...as a human...

awesome >>> YOUTH'10

 !!! 88,366 visitors in Youth'10 !!!

                                                      ^ trio^

                                                ^we guided VIPs^

Day 1 ( 28th May)
Today was the first day of the Malaysia's Largest Youth Festival at PWTC...met new people and made new friends...while my team ( 8 included my leader -- Sufi )...escorting those ministers...celebrities and VIPs as well...thats pretty cool...although we have to walk through all the halls many times with different "Very Important Person"s...yet we enjoyed the journey though...we could control the situation well ( those media) and didn't let it turn into a chaos...especially the arrival of Youth and Sports Minister Datuk Ahamad Shabery Cheek and Datuk Siti Nurhaliza...well today ended earlier than what i expected...headed home at about 15 mins to 9p.m...had a fitful sleep^^

                                              ^my members (2 missing)^

Day 2 ( 29th May)

Reached PWTC at about 8.45a.m...started our job after a light briefing session...don't reckon that our post is easy to "play"...it trained our stamina...thats real xD...Datuk Mukhriz bin Tun Dr. Mahathir and his daughter & Datuk Seri Ong Tee Keat...both of them did visit us (Youth'10) today...i love Youth'10 very much...was a glad occasion and provided chances for us to meet those popular celebrities...guess what...i met Paul Moss...his real person...felt really excited and attended his conference in the hall and took a picture with him...wOOt^^ i stayed up until 10p.m tonight...went to the One fm concert...really exhausted and i just sat there and listened to their songs...slumbered the night away after i have reached home...

                                                ^Caprice in the house^

                                                 ^8tv Rina there^

                                            ^crazy Arifff and Daaanial^

Day 3 ( 30th May)

It just happened so fast...the last day of the festival...can't imagine that...today i helped up at the registration counter there...and hanged around with them...other team's members...well...always have the most interesting part on the last day at the last moment in the Youth festival...that was Fly fm's mini concert...Hunny Madu was the "host" and emcee...and...Bittersweet was the first band to get on stage and followed by CAPRICE in the house!!! He was totally awesome and i like his performance...great show^^ i had pictures with him too...and DJ LapSap was the last one to perform...both of them get us high in the Maybank theater...their powerful music made us dance with it and drove some of them crazy in the hall...it was like a dance floor in front of the stage...an extraordinary concert i could say...amusement mini concert ever!!!

                                                ^part of the volunteers^

It just ended too soon...how come...still in Youth'10 mood...hahaxxx...i know they appreciated our contribution...we (all the volunteers) made a really valuable contribution to a very special event --- Youth Festival!!!Completely exhilarated by the experience!!!

OO big family^^

enjOy Enj0Y . . .

                                                  ^ guys gang^ 

Last day all of us ( OO crews--security & PR) stayed at M block...when we were nothing to do...we just took photos around...no matter who is it...hahax...that was freaking fun...wOOt!!! mixed around and chatted whatever we did...

Well...there were some pplz came to have their second audition...few of them could make it as a finalist...they really tried their best and gave in the efforts in the audition...of course they have to prepare well to attend...not simply and simple...xD

During the audition...5 days there...i could see different types with different attitude people...some of them really made us laugh out loud...may be they are still 'fresh' and do not understand at all i guess...anyway...that is pretty good if you are willing to give it a try^^ no harm right...give yourself a chance to explore some new stuff...All the Best to the finalists...gOOd LuCk!!!

^gals gang^ 

I say OO...U say NIGHT!!!

Today was pretty crazy in M block...because there are no one (who we are searching) to pass by the place that dominated by all TT and OO crews...nalina suggested and asked all of us to gather in front of the block and shout out loud...*I say OO...U say NIGHT*...that was really cool...instead of asking them (freshmen) to join us...i think we were frightening them...hahaxxx

These few days made me really exhausted...between...all of us enjoyed it and doing some silly stuff around there...but yet we did a good job...our OO team...proud of u all^^

flying away . . .

Time passed so fast...2 weeks holidays gone...have to move back to my position -- helper during orientation week...between...these 14 days...did really enjoy it...well i was like...just slept at home in the first week...all of the outings approached in the second week...gathering...having movies...and whatever plans...thats called HOLIDAYs...

07052010 >>> went to P.Pg...BBQ at night...BaysWater condo...that was pretty fun...some sorts of funny parts just drove us crazy...and...no one was drunk that night...just may be drank too much yet not till drunk...thats it...hahax

Anyway...an awesome party...had a great night...enjoyed it...it made me totally forgotten about my problems in my life...dumped it away entirely...love you guys ya...keep in touch^^
*waiting the photos*

Pl@nning

It has been a while i didn't drag anything here...although i passed by...dropped by many places...and reached my OWN room eventually...miss it so much...my 3rd semester break started...various plans approached...

Let's have a look about how to make a plan get done without any obstacles happen...*may be it could be done yet not in a perfect way instead*...if you are planning something (some kinda gathering or outing)...you have to make sure everyone could join...and discuss with everyone...where and when to go...as you act as the leader/ organiser...you have to decide everything and make sure all of them obey it...it is always some sort of them couldn't make it...hardly to get a perfect plan...so if you wanna make a plan goes smooth as your wish...i prefer to have the outing in a small group...about 5 or 6 people...once you could confirm anything and manage whatever mess easily...could get the latest message very clearly among pals in that particular group...the next thing...interests of buddies are quite important...like and dislike...you must have the knowledge...as well as there is no one would change their mind in the last minute...i think there is a successful plan...

Of course...i didn't refuse to join in a big party too..."more people more fun"...there is the quote when wanna invite more guests...while party is absolutely different with a gathering or an outing...for me...an outing will have more fun...it depends...

Through Marge...that pretty funny Homer's wife (if you know about simpsons)...i learnt that "you should listen to your heart...and not the voices in your head"...may be she is true...we should grope and grab the opportunity and just do whatever you want to...listen to your heart...have a right decision and spend time wisely...sometimes different voices hovering around and mix up what we really want...you could stand firm and be determined with your thinking or planning...just follow your heart and try your best to do it...

w3ll

Today was the last day of my final exam...glad that no need to face my notes anymore...well...there is always an obstacle in front of me when i am having gay moment...while...i need your help...your advices...yet the same advices...but i was still care with it...i can't let it such as 'nothing at all'...i couldn't do it...there is my sense that let me know what is actually happen around...

I know that everyone has their own characteristics...and sometimes we might not understand each other very well...it depends on whether that particular person want to share it out or not...normally i will settle it myself by my way...not that tough right...as the previous post of mine...communication...it makes me confused...why can't you understand it??? it did piss me off...

Well...i don't care anymore...and i realized i went further and further...i wonder...am i in the correct way to do that??? ya...it is the time for me to learn...i am learning all the way...i wouldn't let this to wipe away my happiness...well...easy easy...there is the way to get things done...i believe in it...

14042010 ~~

Although the turning point in my current life vanished abruptly...well (shrugging)...could feel solemn and mournful atmosphere...i had promised myself...wouldn't to give a little whimper anymore...should i confide in it???that it was the faith...i don't know...

Anyway...just hanged around with a so called 'vampire' and a peculiar 'RM' in this pretty hot afternoon...went to 1 U...i think we walked through old and new wings...exhausted...both of them were absolutely ludicrous...their foolish conversation always lead me stammer slightly...actually the purpose we visited there was to buy "MayDay DNA World Tour" tickets...freaking hard to find a shop that hide in a corner >< it just out of sight...it would be an awesome show i wish...it is going to be held in June...have to declare bankrupt after we had our lunch in Charbroiled Burgers store...(not pointing to someone else)...hahaxxx

Somehow...i am still having my final exam...mood status turned grief again...just because of the concert could cheer me up at that moment...that is exhilarating^^

2 more subjects to go...GOOD LUCK everyone...

C L ^^

Having coffee liquor at night...the taste is really nice...nice to drink...yet unluckily...i couldn't have it much...because i have to attend final exam on the next day...kinda sad ><

CL contains about 15 % of alcohol if not mistaken...i just had it a little bit...it blushed my face...felt the heat on my cheeks...it was great...could sleep tight tonight...will try it next time...i mean to have more for sure...xD

pls care for IT

OHR...communication chapter...may be it does help someone to improve their skills...i have a glance over some articles about it too...some of them really expressed well and could be understood and absorbed quickly...when we are talking or discussing with one another...please do care for someone's feeling...although joking or jeering around when we mix with friends...don't be too much and cross over the limit...you don't even note that as if someone is suffering with it...don't keep insulting at the same person with the same stuff...again and again...remember that EVERYONE has their very own feeling...wouldn't reveal any particular person...just reflected some of the examples in our daily life...

Almost all of us rely on buddies around...may be someone does not...we have a wonderful time when we mingle together...to play...to eat and enjoying life...although all called friends...still insulted 'softly' in front of you...what would you do...punch them straight away or you will choose to walk away with a silly smile on your cheeks...i wouldn't curse and didn't give a damn...there is nothing could do at least you really wanna break the friendship...

Not saying that you can't joke or i would say it 'jeer'...you have to learn to listen and accept but not only condemn there...of course i'm not living in a solitary instance of cowardice environment... on the contrary...i think almost all of them could help or discuss to get the problem done...treat your friends well...they have the feeling...care about it...

chance given yet......

Although there is a little bit of hope for me...it is really complicated...could i have another options???at least let me to choose the best way...not to follow it blindly...i have the right to demand what i suppose to have...the worst thing happened unfortunately...it doesn't have dead line anymore...so HOW???hate to pass through the ''waiting period''...while this is the truth and nobody could change it...

I wouldn't say that i am down with something else...another way round...i tried my best to solve the dilemma that brought me nowhere recently...and another thing...no one could change me...even though senior/elder/older...don't even persuade me and ordered to do whatever you would like to...anyway...forget about it...

nothing is impossible???

Something inspired me to get back my "human sense" and such feeling...the bravery to continue where i stuck on...don't know since when i have stepped inside such big deep hole...it became fact and isn't it faith???could i change it somehow i don't know the way to lead myself somewhere else i wish to... just want to grab the opportunity and fulfill my desires in my mind...really that tough??? seems nobody could answer...do hope that someone could listen and accept my suggestion at the right time...please DO NOT convince me with those ridiculous reasons...it was not true at all...i could handle it as well...why don't you think about what circumstances i am facing and consequences at last...i just don't want to make things worse or even worst...please again...think about it with standing by my side...

Wondering that this stuff offered me how many sleepless nights...wrestled and strove against it...while tried to have my fitful sleep...yet i failed...i must convince you but not another way round...every time when i was thinking about this...that is the word -->down ...i will prove it to you all...please believe in me...

I did make myself get high last week...it was pretty cool...the feeling was freaking great...spent the whole night giggling, but never got totally drunk...that was the only night i could sleep tight without any deep thinking...i admitted i did deny when was being questioned...i am okay...may be someone could see it through...yet i denied...but i was really fine...such a silly...confused...
''how could this happen to me''
-may be i made my mistakes and nowhere to run
-nights goes on as i am fading away, just wanna scream
-hope when i open my eyes, i cant remember how, i cant remember why, i am lying here
-with everyone's screaming, i try to make a sound but no one hears me
-could i say 'i am sick of this life'

Even though i could get what i want at this moment...but i believe it would not last longer as it goes further...may be i cant cope with it...and don't even try on my endurance...will burst it out soon...don't piss me off often (particular person)...so i chose to walk slower and leave behind...

Have to thank someone who cheers around...even though one day instead...yet you covered it well too...so as we are classified in the same type of creature...hopefully could solve it as soon as possible...i did agree ''don't think too much''...but sometimes just couldn't take it as easy as you think...have to consider the situations we are facing...anyway...just try to solve it if you can...yet i have to get the right time...never known when is it...still an unknown there...

well...life goes on...^^

^the food^

^wshaun^

^whooi^

^jyong^

^cute aitee^

^DJ with speaker^

^the bacon^

^fire eventually^

^BBQ party 180210^

Having a bbq party at night...my hometown there...with old buddies...went to ks's house...quite fun actually...

Bought chicken...after playing arcade...hahax...but we cant have it all...

Miss you all guys...good luck anyway...

-PaintBall- w@r

First experience playing paintball...cool game...one gang about 10 ppl went to CintaSayang in the afternoon...started 4 o'clock sharp...took almost 3 hours there...played many games...captured the flag...last men standing...i won once in last men standing luckily...

We did enjoy the games...nice one...yet exhausted...i get 3 'black green' obviously in this coming CNY...called 'painball' what...xD...gain pain^^ next round...

~party everyday~

Had fun...relaxing~~~

0 - SW
1 - EC
X - GX

^huge star network with huge DOT^

^with Rain^

^steam...BBQ...xD^

^forsak€ stres$^

It felt as if a huge weight had been lifted of my shoulders...feel like just wanna yell and yelp sharply...hahaxxx...just wanna scream~~~that's great...xD

Simpered after leaving the damn hall that fixed me in two weeks...5 tough days there...

Eventually...today is the day...YEAH!!!

Jaunty mood...everyone cheered up considerably...

Breathless with excitement^^

--study everyday--
--study everyday--

monday,
tuesday,
wednesday,
thursday,
friday,
saturday,
saturday & sunday

If you are dropping by this page...just observe one-minute silence...pay our last respect and extend our deepest condolences to all of the victims in Haiti and Chung Ling's students...

2 more papers to go...need to concentrate anyway...weary eyes...one more week...i will have my liberty^^

HEAL the past
LIVE the present
DREAM the future

!!!STOP it !!!

Such ridiculous and irresponsible actions...THEY attacked Metro Tabernacle church...nothing left there...'this despicable act is not an orchestrated tactic to incite anger among the christians'...despicable act of cowardice and hatred...ashamed and remorseful...

Guess what...something made me surprise...leaders of MT church forgive those attackers...anyway...not to give way to extremists wanting to throw the country into chaos...

Sombre mood...absolutely desperate...it is extreme disrespect and prejudice...please wake up...as a Malaysian...once again...

STOP IT PROTESTERS...

2 /// 1

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

All the BEST everyone...

especially....

ME^^

*2009 conclusion*

Holidays almost 6 months after SPM...really enough for me...until May in 2009...decided to step in KL TARC...i was reluctant to go initially because very far from my hometown...as my friend said ''when you are going to start a new life there, you won't
regret after that'' now i believe^^totally agreed with what he said...but i do miss 'them'...

2oo9 => most interesting year i could say...for me=]

Awesome event in this year => Unplugged IV

^M2U gang - 11.30 p.m. - having supper - dinner actually^

^madness^

^vocalist - beat the system^

Sport and Music occupied the rest of 6 months...i did enjoy it...really...in 1st sem...took part in coco...very excited that whoever joined badminton tuesday morning session cheered when i was in the final with my partner...that is great...

^part of the members^

While the unplugged IV in M2U...haha...enjoy jamming...while just forget the bad things^^ need to manage the time well to practice...i missed it...lets try some new things...hehe...

^melody buddies^

^M2U big family^

Other events i posted recently...good and bad...but enjoy much...hope my new year 2010 will be great too...not better...is GREAT...xD...proceed to the best...

*I will never regret what i did to u/u guys...^^ keep it up*